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GODLINESS By Grish Davtian I am waiting For the heavenly inspiration To create this poem, To glorify this life, To be filled, impregnated, To have my thoughts realized, Like the unavoidable sunrises Which sculpt the light With rays Like my image... I am only a human creature With rationality, conscience, And infinite satiety... I remember That in the beginning was the word... I know from that That intellect Preceded creation... Therefore, the universe is not The result of contingency, Or a big banggg... But it is a cognitive creation, A wise ingeniousness, The way a poem should be... I am striving for the heavenly inspiration To create this poem, To live this life For the praise of God... ...But my mind is hesitant With different directions... I am lost... Aspiring for godliness I have lost My orientation... And it is not by contingency... ...Because Moses came and told me To worship God. I do not remember now Who did what; Yet it happened That I began worshiping Moses... And I started discriminating Between others and myself, Whether they are circumcised or not? What kind of slaughtered meat do they eat? On which day do they get tired, And take rest? I began putting signs on the doors For God to notice... Such discriminations... Then Jesus came and told me To worship God. I do not remember now Who did what Yet it happened That I began worshiping Jesus... Jesus has said To love one another... But obviously I cannot love all; I do not love the criminals, I do not love the Turks Who committed Genocide of the Armenians... So I love some people And I do not love some others, I do not even know the majority... This has become a nest of discriminations... Then Mohammed came and told me To worship God. I do not remember now Who did what; Yet it happened That I began worshiping Mohammed... And I started discriminating Between others and myself, As to which direction do they face praying? And if they are not of my faith Then they are foul, So it is acceptable for God That I may shed the blood of the foul... Such discriminations... Others also came and told me To worship God; I do not remember, My memory is blurred... I am much confused... Moses established Ten Commandments... After experiences I discovered The unwritten eleventh commandment, That: in case of breaking the commandment I should do it in such a way So that others would not know... But how can it be? Is it not that God is all-knowing? Jesus ordered To have hope, love and faith... After experiences I find out That no matter how much I possess them, Nevertheless, Hope does not materialize, Love is not reciprocated, Faith comes to doubts... Really, could they not be practically planned in such a way To work with the accuracy of a computer? Mohammed ordered That if my lying be in the interest of God Then it is acceptable... But how can it be? Since lying is bad How can it be in the interest of God? I am wholly confused... Because whoever came said something different... If only all had said the same thing... Is not everyone's message about godliness? Truly I am a worshiper of God, But I am confused By different messages... Rising from the experience Of my confusions and delusions I beg: "Lord God, Do not send anyone anymore; At this supreme time Let your own grace come in person And put an end to my delusions, So I can create this poem, This life, This God-granted miracle... Copyright © 2002 Grish Davtian -- Grish Davtian was born in Nor Jugha, Esfahan, Iran. His work includes poetry and literary criticism written in Armenian, and, more recently, poetry written in English. He has worked as the founding editor for the Aregak monthly journal, in 1964-5 in London, and editor of the literary pages of Alik Daily newspaper, in 1980-1985 in Tehran. As a member of the Armenian Writer's Society in Iran, he has served as the vice president and president of this organization for several years. He has three books of poems published in Armenian. Now living in Glendale, CA, USA, Davtian has been in charge of the literary pages of the Asparez Daily newspaper in 1997-2001. He has initiated the Literary Asparez monthly meetings, sponsored by the Glendale Public Library. He runs a one hour weekly literary program, called Literary Ether, on Horizon Armenian TV. The book of his English poems "The Ameriacan Pulse" has recently been published by Publish America LLLP, USA. He is also the editor of The Literary Groong (TLG) webpage on the Groong Armenian News Network website.